Night Before Due Date

There are weeks that I am very excited about writing for this blog.  There are even times that I get several weeks ahead with my posts.  There are also weeks like this one, in which it is the night before my Wednesday self-imposed due date and I have nothing.

The last week has been an odd one for me.  I have had extremely severe mood swings, taking me from feeling on top of the world to catatonic and suicidal.  Due to these mood swings, and my desire to level out, I am now a patient in a partial hospitalization program (PHP), also known as a day hospital.

With the mood swings, the change in schedule, and the change in meds implemented by the day hospital psychiatrist, I have been a little discombobulated.  I missed a DBSA (Depression Bipolar Support Alliance) meeting that I had otherwise been looking forward to.  I also neglected this blog.

The day hospital is Monday through Friday from 8:30-3:30, and I am very fortunate to be able to say that I have a job that is working with me through this.  My employer is not large enough for FMLA protections (50+ full time employees), but I have been assured that my job is safe.  I am doing what I can from home each day after day hospital, and others are picking up the slack.

This is the first employer I have been honest with about an extended leave.  I used to leave it at “medical issue”.  With this employer, this is the second time that I have explicitly stated that my extended absence is due to “a mental health issue”.  I have been met with nothing but support.  This would not have been the case at my previous employer(s) and for this positive change, I am grateful.

The PHP will last anywhere from 2 to 4 weeks (technically up to 6 weeks, but I am told that is rare).  I hope that the next weeks of this program I am able to create something of more substance for this blog, but I figure this week something is better than nothing.

Be Well.



One comment

  1. Deciding when and how to disclose an illness to your employer is one of the hardest parts of the employment relationship. I am glad that yours took it so well.


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